silence ii.
Now my dad tried to make me feel calmer by telling me all of this is not important and I don't need to stress. Honestly, thanks dad, but that didn't help. Right now I don't need any distractions. I need to finish what needs to be done and go to sleep. Sleep is what I need now. Not because I'm tired I'm fucking stress-adrenalin high but because I need sleep to forget and dream.
The reason I'm distracting myself by blogging right now because this is the most powerful emotion I've felt for some time and I need to record a moment where things became about me.
This may not make any sense to you right now. It might just seem like emo ranting uncharacteristic of me. It means more right now but in the larger scale of things, it isn't. But it means something NOW.