silence ii.
Now my dad tried to make me feel calmer by telling me all of this is not important and I don't need to stress. Honestly, thanks dad, but that didn't help. Right now I don't need any distractions. I need to finish what needs to be done and go to sleep. Sleep is what I need now. Not because I'm tired I'm fucking stress-adrenalin high but because I need sleep to forget and dream.
The reason I'm distracting myself by blogging right now because this is the most powerful emotion I've felt for some time and I need to record a moment where things became about me.
This may not make any sense to you right now. It might just seem like emo ranting uncharacteristic of me. It means more right now but in the larger scale of things, it isn't. But it means something NOW.
Friday, November 28, 2008 at 7:15 AM
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silence.
I am so incredibly stressed out I cannot be bothered to say anything about the cruise or anything about anything!
My handphone battery is utterly destroyed which effectively destroys my lifeline to the world and my ease of movement. My mum is leaving for India on Tuesday and I cannot believe such a shit is happening NOW.
I forgot my fucking charger at the debate room. Oh god, this is such an inconvenience and it feels like a time limit on how long I can work on debate stuff. I've transferred everything to my PC, but this is not the shit I need now.
And debate.
This shit better be fucking worth it tomorrow.
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